Vodka drowns the butterflies
But cannot kill the feeling,
And the smell of alchol in my breath
Makes me sick,
And I hate feeling dizzy,
And the world isn't supposed to spin
this fast,
But maybe if I drink just enough
to turn numb
It won't hurt this much.
And there are boys here
trying to touch me,
And they say I'm pretty
And wanna taste what I've been
drinking,
But I look at them and all I see
is a kind of loneliness in their eyes
That doesn't match
mine.
All these boys, they aren't
you,
And you used to call me
beautiful
instead of pretty,
And our kisses tasted like
honey
Not vodka,
And when you first touched me
It wasn't even with your
hands.
And I'm repulsed by all
these boys and
this love,
and I'm exhausted
and your lips don't meet mine
anymore,
but something inside hurts
a little less
when the bottle kisses the dry skin
on my lips
and half an hour later the bottle is just
as empty as I am.
I hate drinking.
I don't do this, this isn't me
and it feels good not to be
me.
I'm 22 and I have galaxies growing
inside my ribs
I am supposed to be in love with the world
not with a man,
Maybe if I'm a whole new person
I can hate you with this new being
And I guess I'd rather burn my throat
than hurt my heart,
So I take another sip and
give in.
I'll deal with my shame
tomorrow,
when I'm back to being
miserably and
pathetically
in love with you.
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